Dear Dean Love Mom

What is wrong with God? Why in the world would he ever put a parent through the nightmare, the anguish, of losing a child?

How, through the miracle of birth, could He give a mother His most precious gift ...only to snatch it back, recalling it to the heavens as if it were some defective merchandise?

What is wrong with God?

Esther Luttrell lost her son. Did she grieve? Of course. Was she in pain? Of course.

But what if, when the nest was empty, the bird continued to fly? What if life continued on the Other Side?

"Dear Dean...Love, Mom" is Esther's true life encounter with her son after he crossed over. This journal of life-after-life is spellbinding and mysterious, but also hopeful and enchanting.

What if God didn't get it wrong? What if the miracle of life doesn't end with death? What if the miracle of life continues?

Esther has lived an extraordinary life. A life filled one moment with exhilaration and the next moment with despair. But, finally, she is able to share her story with the world. Her nest may be empty, but she knows, in her heart of hearts, somewhere in the heavens, her bird is still flying.

Ken Rotcop

Author of The Perfect Pitch Series

Award winning screenwriter/producer

"This book...is proof that life is just the beginning. Esther Luttrell has been given that rare glimpse granted to only a few through that veil which separates this world from the next. There is life past death - and 'Dear Dean...Love, Mom' contains proof." - Duane L. Herrmann, author Prairies of Possibilities; Selected Trees; Fragrances of Grace; Voices from a Borrowed Garden.

"In 'Dear Dean...Love, Mom', Esther Luttrell demonstrates the paradox of learning about the meaning of life through the sorrow of death. The stories within this book have universal appeal as each reader seeks, in their own way, to understand the continuity of life." - Leslie Plumley, Legend Family Films, producer "The Metro Chase"

Dear Dean,

I know you've wondered if I would ever understand what it is you've been trying to tell me since the day you crossed over. In my missing you, in my desperate search for answers, I was so busy shouting why, why, why that I couldn't hear your clear voice. This book, honey, is my wholehearted effort to share your messages--when I finally shut up long enough to hear them." Excerpt from "Dear Dean...Love, Mom".

"From the first sentence to the last, this book grabbed my heart and didn't let go. It made me laugh, it made me cry and it gave me comfort and understanding about what is really important in life. I highly recommend it to everyone who has lost a loved one, or who wonders about life's mysteries. Well-written, it holds a powerful message of hope." - Dianne Lawson, writer, astrologer, Feng Shui consultant

"Esther Luttrell has managed to do something utterly remarkable in her book, and that is tell a unique, true story, a heartbreaking story of a mother's loss, and yet one that unfolds as uplifting and life-affirming, compelling readers to open their hearts and minds to possibilities unforeseen - joys unexpected and close at hand." - Frank Dooley, Eastern North Carolina Film Commissioner

"I have been moved to tears and given hope by many books: Kidnapped, A Christmas Carol, Silas Marner, Cyrano de Bergerac, Ethan Frome...But these are all fiction. Esther Luttrell's book, 'Dear Dean...Love, Mom', is a true account, written from the depths of her soul and her poignant struggle to come to terms with Dean's death. At times heart-rending, at other times heart-warming, Esther's emotional journey through the loss of her son to the realization of what it means, gives all of us insight and hope for our own struggles, no matter what they may be. I wish all of us could gain such awareness and emotional well-being as Esther has. A gem of a book!" - Jo A. Hiestand, author of the Taylor & Graham mystery series.

"Dear Dean...Love, Mom" is one book you won't want to put down. Esther continues to help people who have lost a loved one, in a way no one else can. I first met her when I phoned to ask if she would conduct a screenwriting seminar for an organization I belong to. I soon found that her kind words were to help me to accept my son's recent death. I believed he was always with me, but others thought I was losing it. Hearing about Dean from Esther, I came to realize that my son was communicating with me, but in a way different than I had thought. If you have lost a family member, or friend, you must read this book. I hope you get the message that I got: That they are always with us. Always. - Carole A. Ferrill, Former State President, Florida Motion Picture & Television Association.

"Having just lost a good friend and coworker, and being thrown into despair, I can't imagine the anguish Esther felt losing her son at such a young and vital age. In this short book, she examines the meaning she has drawn from his death. With Dean's continued spiritual prodding, she has turned tragedy into a blessing. I'm confident this book will help many turn despair into expression." - Rick Maresker, Communiversity Director/Editor

"Dear Dean...Love, Mom" is one of those books that comes into our lives all too infrequently. Esther Luttrell has a way of turning personal experience into universal meaning. She does it simply and elegantly and honestly. No preaching, no over-reaching, no stretching the truth. She does it by bearing and sharing her soul. If you want to laugh, cry and nod your head several times per page, get this book." - Peter Shianna, author, "Take Off!, "LoveTag".

"However you may respond, in terms of your own religious beliefs, to the miraculous elements in the story Esther Luttrell tells in 'Dear Dean...Love, Mom', it is hard to deny that in the years since his death, her son has been an angel on her shoulder.

I lost my mother when I was 9 years old ... She was the one I went sledding with, the one who would sing to us while she was ironing, the one who taught me to read. She has remained, in my heart, forever 27, with the spit-curl on her forehead, and she continues to have a unique power over me.

Esther's book might seem the result of an active imagination to many readers, but she provokes you to think of experiences of your own that tend to prove the case." - Robert N. Lawson, Professor of English (Ret), author "Collected Sonnets", "Bridge of Oceans"

"Dear Dean...Love, Mom" creates a truly magical experience that transcends storytelling and delivers on the promise of a transformational experience. Few writers face their own lives as a story with such honestly, generousity, and courage. Few people can. Esther shows the way. " - Scott Anderson, Director, Harvard Square Screenwriters

"At last! Another mother who can see and hear her son in Spirit! I was uplifted as I read Esther's journey of discovery, and that her dear Dean is, indeed, not "lost". Love doesn't stop with these robes left on Earth. Love is forever, life after life, in every culture and every body form. They don't leave us. They watch over us, but not in judgement, just pure love." - Sylvia S. Colombo, author, "I Danced With Crazy Horse".

"No mere book, this is a pure and honest outpouring of emotion, so genuine and so personal you will feel the writer's least and greatest sufferings while sharing her journey to answer the most profound questions of life ... and death." Paul Sirmons, Director-Producer, "The First of May"; former Florida Film Commissioner